One more week to go till the second seminar.
Learning how to engage with people in a seminar setting has been a huge new learning for me.
This is a completely unexpected challenge!
The purpose of this seminar series was initially for me to share what I’ve learned through my research on psychotherapy and Buddhism.
I’ve already got a written thesis, so I assumed that it would be easy to share main points.
I’ve got it all wrong.
I didn’t know that a way of delivering a message through talking is completely different from through writing!
To be honest, I’ve been struggling with articulate what I want to say within a limited time of the seminar and in a way that is relatable and engaging.
I had to rethink and rewrite the whole thing.
I’ve presented the seminar draft to four friends so far, and I’ve got a feeling that there is something missing.
Their feedback is so valuable. I feel like it’s almost impossible to develop the seminar content and a way of delivery by myself!
It has been an endless attempt to improve the draft.
It reminds me of my writing process during the research.
I would become frustrated with my writing process. When I tried to write about a revelation, the result was often completely disappointing and far from what was developing inside me.
I rewrote passages again and again trying to put my thoughts into words.
One day when I shared my struggle with a close friend of mine.
She is an accomplished musician and conductor. She encouraged me to look at manuscripts of Beethoven for inspiration.
When I saw this, I was taken aback. Beethoven also struggled to articulate music that was resonating within him.
He was single-mindedly seeking the notes that express the music he was hearing inside him.
This experience inspired me to stay focused and keep going.
Towards the seminar I will keep going and polishing the content and delivery again and again like Beethoven!
“How to deliver a message through talking” is a whole new learning for me.
This is a meaningful challenge for me to express myself because I was so afraid to be seen. I feel like I am cultivating a new aspect of me now.
I would like to thank all my friends who are helping me realise my full potential.
This is a beautiful struggle of becoming myself.
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I am currently writing about my process towards realising my dream “Spreading a joy of being oneself with 1000 people.”
I wrote what motivated me to realise this dream here:
My dream “May we all be true to ourselves!”
